Another year that begins without you, my 2nd so far but this year I feel so much more positive than last year.
I’ve come along way on my grief journey, I’ve welcomed a beautiful grandson to our family, the bond between your sister, myself and grandma is glued tightly together forever. I’m appreciating life so much more and concentrating on ‘living in the moment’ everyday matters. I’ve undergone weightloss surgery over Christmas so that I can value the vessel God has given me and respect my body something I’ve never done before. Your little body had so much to cope with and yet I continued to abuse mine. You’ve taught me so much in your short life about appreciating life and the people around me. I know since you and dad have left us people pity me but it is I that pity them, I know the true meaning of God’s love, of loss and of hope. I know you are with me everyday, I know you will always be by my side guiding my every move.
I promise you as this new year approaches that I will continue to say your name as often as I can. I promise to continue to raise awareness and funds for Cystic Fibrosis in your memory. I promise to value myself and commit to making a ‘better me’.
I love and miss you every second of every day my darling but I’m not giving up. I so wish I could have one more cuddle but I know I will have to wait until I see you again. Give granda a big hug from me. Until we meet again Happy New Year In Heaven ❤️💜❤️