Thoughts of you fill my mind so much this last week my darling Órla.
Leigh just turned two and is growing into a beautiful little boy, it scares me to think that he is quickly growing and will soon reach and go past your 9 years. I’m so lucky to have such a beautiful grandson in my life but I can’t help feel how cruel life is. I would give anything to have you back.
I of course miss grandad too but he lived a good life and I had him for 46 years as my daddy, your life was so short and full of pain. How can god have been so cruel?
I’m as happy as I can be in this world without you, I’m in love with a whole new chapter beginning for Jim and I in our new home. I’m moving back to be near Zoëy and Leigh and all my friends and grandma and myself have some fabulous holiday adventures coming up this year. I realise how lucky I am compared to some others but I’d give it all up in a heartbeat if I could see you and hold just one more day.
I thought time was supposed to heal …..
It doesn’t it just makes me worry I’ll forget the sound of your voice, the smell of your hair and the feel of my arms around you.
I miss you so much my Órla porla.
Mummy loves you xxxxxx