It’s Jim and my first Easter in our new apartment so I’m inviting grandma, Zoëy and of course Leigh round for turkey and ham dinner. Trying to set new traditions for our family as you and grandad are not here to do our old traditions. It’s still so hard without you I can’t believe it’s nearly three years why doesn’t it get any easier. I miss you so much my life just doesn’t seem worth it. I still long for the day I join you and I know I’m not supposed to feel like this but I do, not every day but most days.
I know I’m lucky to have a beautiful grandson now and a daughter to be proud of but the yearning to cuddle you, to hold you in my arms is still so strong, I simply can’t imagine not feeling this way,
Gran and I are still traveling the world and trying to live life to the full as we promised you and grandad but the novelty soon wears off and your dragged back to reality.
If I could ask one request from you & grandad could you please send someone for your sister. CeCe (Zoëy) makes out she’s so strong and independent and she is but she, as you know, struggles on her own with Leigh, my one wish is for her to find a special person to look after her and help her bring up Leigh together. She certainly deserves it after what she’s been through.
Happy Easter my beautiful girl, mommy loves you so much.
Until we meet again my angel